it’s ecstasy

put your lips on mine
put your tongue on mine
run your fingers through my hair
and your hands down my back
up my legs
slowly
let me hear your moans
your heavy breathing
your face pressed against mine
and every inch of my body screams
yearns, begs, pleads
take me
baby, take me

she probably thinks she found a prize

you haven’t learned a thing
I feel bad for her
I wonder if she knows
what you did to me
I wonder what excuses you used
to justify your behavior
I know you haven’t learned from it

you move on to something new
someone new
but do you work on your self
like I work on myself
each and every day
working on the trust
struggling with believing that
not every man will lie to you
not every man will betray you

does she know?
does she care?
do you care?
did you ever?

I found new magic

there weren’t happy endings anymore
no hopeless romance
no naive love
no relationships destined to be

I had the magic ripped from my soul
and my heart
and mind

then you came along
it wasn’t perfect
we both carried struggles
but we sparked something together
and then

there were new happy endings
and real romance
and deep love
and relationship full of two people
communicating
and caring for each other

thoughts while in quarantine

you’re not alone
but you miss your life
surrounded by love but
you feel foggy
something is just not right
how do you stop yourself
from falling again
fucking again
into that pit
the one that’s dragged you
down
so many times

you must remember
you are surrounded by love
laughter
touch
just remember
you are surrounded by love
you are not alone

it’s what love is

I know we’re different
you don’t understand me sometimes
I don’t understand you sometimes
but I know I care for you
I know I want the best for you
I know holding your hand
makes me feel better
and I know being wrapped in your arms
is some kind of magic