my heart is full of love
full of you
full of us
baby, you’re stuck with me
no one else I’d rather be alone with
my heart
heavy and full
at the same time
hurting for my home
and finding home
in someone new
pandemic
breathe in
breathe out
and be the light
in this dark
a first date
we talked for hours that first night
it didn’t feel forced or awkward
I felt comfortable, at ease
I rambled about the dumbest things
unintentionally trying hard
not to linger my face too close to yours
until you finally asked outright
can I kiss you?
then your lips on my mine
our tongues entwined
it was perfection
the whole night was perfection
you are my person
at this moment you are so far away
but I feel closer to you
than I have to anyone else in years
kindness
I see you
I feel you
I know you
you are kind
sweet
loving
you have brought the joy
hope
LOVE
back into my life
don’t let any of them
make you feel
less than
unworthy
not enough
babe, you are more
SO MUCH MORE
than any of them can see
I see you
I feel you
I know you
how many times can I say I’m so glad we met?
doing nothing with you
means everything to me
I’m always the one to have to lead by example
all this time has passed
we’ve both moved on
why is it though that I am still
hoping you’ll change
this time, in a different way
opposites attract & somehow it works
a woman of words
&
a man of numbers
help
and suddenly I pause
my heart tightens
weights on my shoulders
do I feel too much
love too much
give too much
usually the words are right there
spilling out like water
but I can’t speak
my throat closing in
my whole body tensing
I want to understand
but you have to also understand me
feel me
see me

