two awkward souls
with different kinds of weird
find each other
and create
something magical
You hold me down, not back.
I can never thank you enough for it.
one happy girl
a bottle of chardonnay
a bouquet of red roses
a small gesture
a sweet surprise
we’re pretty good together
patience
honesty
kindness
love
still a goddess
even powerful women tire
lose themselves sometimes
are unable to see the light
that doesn’t make them any less powerful
nobody is perfect
you are all a part of me now
to the past loves
to the ones who never were
to the ones who used me
to the ones I used
to the ones who broke me
the intense romance
the toxic relationships
the lessons learned
the experience gained
the heart rebuilt
some are just not kind
they use you up, throw you out
just a memory
stuck
Sometimes, I don’t know who I am.
What makes me, me?
Am I trying too hard to be what and who I was in the past?
If I am not reading,
writing,
singing,
have I lost myself?
Am I just evolving into someone new?
Someone better?
Do I force the old ways?
Embrace new ways?
Sometimes, it feels like too much pressure.
it’s the way you love me
the way you love astounds me
maybe it was like that in the beginning for me
the first time
but it was so long ago I can’t remember
it’s your calm and patience
when I am ugly crying
completely lost in my mind and emotions
it’s the way you remind
everything is going to be all right
we’re going to be all right
I’ve unintentionally trained myself
that if I show to much emotion
if I don’t hold it all together
my partner will bottle up and shut down
but you don’t
you don’t.
I’ll be fine next to you
you hold me when I’m
scared
sad
tired
you brush my hair
with your hand
and tell me not to worry
I will be fine
you hold back judgment
but give so much in
understanding,
patience
I’m always discovering new
reasons I love you