Maybe I do want that Prince sometimes

I want someone who will
put me first sometimes.
I pour all of my heart into everyone else.
I lose myself often.

Just show me love
with your hands
and your time.
Make me feel like there is nothing
else in this world but me.
I want to hear all the ways
I am amazing.
I want to be showered
with affection.

But I give too much,
take too little,
and I don’t know how to stop.

two years later

there are still moments
when I feel like I am not enough
where the fear that I will be abandoned
and betrayed
pulses inside my mind
eats away at my soul
like one day you will wake up
and just be done with me
all the passion gone
all the desire lost
as if our love never existed

sometimes I don’t know how to silence the fear