Loyalty is a verb. Love is a verb. I can’t remember where I heard that, but it’s true. My heart is so full right now. It is crazy to think it has been two years since I started a new life all on my own. If you would have asked me then where I saw myself in the future, I’m not sure it would be here. I was so jaded and blinded by betrayal. I found parts of myself that had been missing for years, but also lost parts of me that had been there all along. I feel like I have been blessed with a real partner. Someone who appreciates the things I do. Someone who adores my body. Someone who can communicate at a high level. Someone who doesn’t shut down and bottle things up. I have found a man who sees me and loves me for exactly who I am. I am grateful for him and this new life I never expected.
So my heart stopped and I nervously laughed
I thought about all the ways
things could change when I finally
told you I loved you.
I thought about all the ways
things could change when you finally
met my children.
But, I never once thought about the ways
things could change if
they said they loved you.
help me
I am a powerful woman
and I hide all this insecurity
under my strength.
Maybe I do want that Prince sometimes
I want someone who will
put me first sometimes.
I pour all of my heart into everyone else.
I lose myself often.
Just show me love
with your hands
and your time.
Make me feel like there is nothing
else in this world but me.
I want to hear all the ways
I am amazing.
I want to be showered
with affection.
But I give too much,
take too little,
and I don’t know how to stop.
Our Love
Your heart fits in my heart
like it was meant to be there
the whole time.
you are all I desire
that look in your eyes
my lips on yours
your breath warm on my skin
my tongue all over you
my moans
your moans
I can’t get enough of this feeling
history teaches me
I can see now
why those past relationships
didn’t work
you can love someone
but not be right for them
someone can love you
but not be right for you
how did this happen?
you make me believe in forever
happily ever after
another chance at true love
and maybe even
changing my name again
the one you can’t be rid of
I hate when I see your face
it’s unfair
I am still waiting for the apology
for the reasons why
even though I know
I will never get them
a strength you’ll never know
when you leave someone you love
because you love yourself more