thoughts while in quarantine

you’re not alone
but you miss your life
surrounded by love but
you feel foggy
something is just not right
how do you stop yourself
from falling again
fucking again
into that pit
the one that’s dragged you
down
so many times

you must remember
you are surrounded by love
laughter
touch
just remember
you are surrounded by love
you are not alone

it’s what love is

I know we’re different
you don’t understand me sometimes
I don’t understand you sometimes
but I know I care for you
I know I want the best for you
I know holding your hand
makes me feel better
and I know being wrapped in your arms
is some kind of magic

a first date

we talked for hours that first night
it didn’t feel forced or awkward
I felt comfortable, at ease
I rambled about the dumbest things
unintentionally trying hard
not to linger my face too close to yours
until you finally asked outright
can I kiss you?
then your lips on my mine
our tongues entwined
it was perfection
the whole night was perfection