when you leave someone you love
because you love yourself more
gratitude
thank you for opening up
being vulnerable
trusting me deeply
loving all the parts of my
sharp and jagged heart
skin to skin and no regrets
the way we smiled at each other that night
everything felt so comfortable and right
two years later
there are still moments
when I feel like I am not enough
where the fear that I will be abandoned
and betrayed
pulses inside my mind
eats away at my soul
like one day you will wake up
and just be done with me
all the passion gone
all the desire lost
as if our love never existed
sometimes I don’t know how to silence the fear
N.P.
I am grateful for your presence in my life.
You have brought hope, light, and love into my heart.
11.1
We were strangers when we met. Two people swiping. Hoping maybe for some kind of connection. When I saw you and sat down with you, it felt comfortable. First dates are always a little nerve wracking, but the more we talked, the more at ease I felt. It was like I’d known you for a while. You were authentic and real. You were kind and soft. After that first kiss, I knew I was basically yours.
the safety of love
I could lay wrapped in your arms all day
my fingers pretzeled with yours
your lips softly kissing me on my forehead
and still they made you leave
you spent a lifetime loving
someone who didn’t care enough
to end things with respect
that kind of behavior fucks you up
you almost believe it was your fault
like you deserved it
like all that history wasn’t worth
a decent ending
don’t forget yourself
and I have learned to bottle up
accidentally
giving too much
not knowing that I am close
to a breaking point
I love much
and hard
give with every inch of my soul
that sometimes I forget
about me
fuck
I do too much for men
too fucking much
