I am done
these men who
love bomb you with affection
use you to get their dick wet
take advantage of your trust and betray
all these fucking men who
lead you on
piss you off
try to break you down
what they don’t know
what they can’t see
is your strength
you are all you need
my mind feels fuzzy tonight
my heart a little tired
I didn’t sign up for this life
it’s just what I was given
in his little face is yours
and there are times it
breaks my heart
all over again
an open wound always left
slightly bleeding
because I will never be
rid of you
you will always be
a part of him
of me
even though you
DON’T
deserve to be
all these men
they want hard, rough sex
they want to spank you
and bite you
and grab your hair
and choke you
just once
show me a man
who will hold you
caress your skin softly
kiss you slowly
go down on you gently
a man with patience
and kindness
concerned with your desire
comfort
and pleasure
a lingering look
a smile
a lean in
a touch
a kiss
then more
I don’t want
to share a home
a ring
to just fuck
one night
I want
to run my fingers through someone’s hair
to tell someone about my day
good morning and good night texts
wine and laughing and singing
I don’t want
endless small talk
breadcrumbs and ghosting
I just want
my person
of all the things you took from me
I miss my naivety the most
I no longer believe in soulmates
no one person for you
for me
for anyone
love is not innocent anymore
it hurts
it breaks
it betrays
I no longer blindly trust
why should I
when the one person I could count on
lied straight to my face
every day
for months
the hopeless romantic in me
is long gone now
and all that’s left is just
….
even strong women
sometimes need
the wrong men
to learn things from
sometimes the best way
to know what you need
is by discovering the things
you thought you wanted
but really didn’t
I have lost 35 pounds
but I still feel heavy
the tag reads two sizes smaller
but in the mirror I still see
the same fat girl
but I’m alone now
carrying all this weight
of my body
of my choices
of everything really
I have lost 35 pounds
but it feels like I’m carrying around
so much more
holding your little hands in mine
seeing your smiles
hearing your laughs
my face is in your faces
pieces of me
make up pieces of you
you both are my heart
and my life
and my light
my boys until
forever
take my hand
I want to show you
my light
my love
let me bewitch you
dazzle you
amaze you
come
take my hand
a girl who writes 