Tag: poetry

I may not be yours
anymore
and you might not
be mine
but I still feel comfort
in holding your hand
sometimes
and laughing with you
and drinking with you
and talking with you
maybe it’s not what I imagined it to be
but you and me
the things you showed me
and taught me
the way you brought the smile
and the light
back into my life
you are and always will be
part of me

you don’t get to tell me
what or when
to do something
I am not yours
I don’t belong to you
you don’t even know me
and I don’t owe you
anything

I told you to leave
because I knew
I deserved better than
what you did to me
what you were doing to me

it hurt when you walked away
and I realized
you were not as upset as me
you could never be as upset as me

I wonder what pieces of me
you took with you
when you left

parts of my heart
now left with all these deep holes
most of my trust
all of my innocence
and hope

good thing though
you can grow back most of those things

I will see my value
I will not allow
anyone
to make me feel anything less than
my worth
because I am gold
I am diamonds
I am everything
and so much more

they can’t see my fire
but I can feel it burning
and growing
I can feel its warmth
hot flames sparking
the witch
inside me

she gets set back
sometimes
but it’s okay

she gets tired
sometimes
but it’s okay

she makes mistakes
and has regrets
but it’s okay

underneath the
self-doubt and
overthinking
she is still strong
she can overcome

but for tonight
tonight
she will just rest

a little hi
a quick how are you
an easy hey
a fast what’s up
effortless
and simple
enough to show an interest

more to share
but I’m holding back
slow down
don’t move too fast
don’t be
needy
clingy
crazy
just be
present

sometimes I still feel tied to you
anchored
weighted down by
grief
loss
heartbreak
betrayal

were you never who I thought you were?
was I never what I thought I was?

one foot out
one foot in
done but still dealing with
still working on
everything that went wrong

I am beautiful
I am independent
I am creative
I am smart
I am wise
I am loving
I am funny
I am worthy

I am deserving of all the things I want

it’s easier now to see your face
just a memory
of what used to be
now slowly fading over time

i used to know the person
behind those eyes
or at least i thought i did
i don’t think that person
ever truly existed

one day
maybe one day
there will be a new face
one to trust
one to love
a face that didn’t break my heart
a face that didn’t betray me
one that will show me
i can still feel that way again