a girl who writes

we talked for hours that first night
it didn’t feel forced or awkward
I felt comfortable, at ease
I rambled about the dumbest things
unintentionally trying hard
not to linger my face too close to yours
until you finally asked outright
can I kiss you?
then your lips on my mine
our tongues entwined
it was perfection
the whole night was perfection

at this moment you are so far away
but I feel closer to you
than I have to anyone else in years

I see you
I feel you
I know you
you are kind
sweet
loving

you have brought the joy
hope
LOVE
back into my life

don’t let any of them
make you feel
less than
unworthy
not enough

babe, you are more
SO MUCH MORE
than any of them can see

I see you
I feel you
I know you

doing nothing with you
means everything to me

all this time has passed
we’ve both moved on
why is it though that I am still
hoping you’ll change
this time, in a different way

a woman of words
&
a man of numbers

and suddenly I pause
my heart tightens
weights on my shoulders
do I feel too much
love too much
give too much
usually the words are right there
spilling out like water
but I can’t speak
my throat closing in
my whole body tensing
I want to understand
but you have to also understand me
feel me
see me

your face
your voice
your generosity
your teasing
your touch

you got me listening to
sappy sweet love songs and
daydreaming all the time
about you and
me and
us and
all the things that could be

you got my heart beating
faster and
my mind feeling calmer
I feel a stillness when I’m with you but
how can time stop and
go so quickly when you’re near

you got these walls
crumbling and
hope growing and
romance seeping back into
every
inch of me