a girl who writes

you invaded my dreams again
last night
saying all the things
I wished you would’ve said but
you never did
the regret stung when I woke up

one day you’ll end up with her
and I’ll be constantly reminded
of a life I’ve lost

I am not the kind of girl you forget

don’t worry babe
one day all this crazy shit
won’t matter and
everything will make sense

be cautious
but not closed down
there are liars hiding
in men who appear the most
kind and respectful

my heart feels a little more open today
and I am so grateful

I could not live up to
any of their expectations
I tore myself down
exhausted all my strength
I gave up pieces of me
stepped out of my bubble
but what did I get in return?
I got to feel crazy
jealous
shamed
why?
why?

why?

hey girl
you are doing just fine and
you are gonna be all right