just stop

Why does my heart insist on feeling this way?
my mind is still drowning in the memories
It remembers every beat
thump
thump
thump
that practically came right out of my chest
It remembers every tear
every cry out in pain
every lonely second so near someone
you thought you knew

Why does my heart insist on feeling this way?
It opens itself up again
when it clearly isn’t ready
don’t you remember?
can’t you remember?

ghosting and
settling and
obsessing and
hoping

Why does
my heart
feel this way?