a buzz and a bing

a little hi
a quick how are you
an easy hey
a fast what’s up
effortless
and simple
enough to show an interest

more to share
but I’m holding back
slow down
don’t move too fast
don’t be
needy
clingy
crazy
just be
present

attached

sometimes I still feel tied to you
anchored
weighted down by
grief
loss
heartbreak
betrayal

were you never who I thought you were?
was I never what I thought I was?

one foot out
one foot in
done but still dealing with
still working on
everything that went wrong