I am gold

I will see my value
I will not allow
anyone
to make me feel anything less than
my worth
because I am gold
I am diamonds
I am everything
and so much more

the witch

they can’t see my fire
but I can feel it burning
and growing
I can feel its warmth
hot flames sparking
the witch
inside me

warrior

she gets set back
sometimes
but it’s okay

she gets tired
sometimes
but it’s okay

she makes mistakes
and has regrets
but it’s okay

underneath the
self-doubt and
overthinking
she is still strong
she can overcome

but for tonight
tonight
she will just rest

a buzz and a bing

a little hi
a quick how are you
an easy hey
a fast what’s up
effortless
and simple
enough to show an interest

more to share
but I’m holding back
slow down
don’t move too fast
don’t be
needy
clingy
crazy
just be
present

attached

sometimes I still feel tied to you
anchored
weighted down by
grief
loss
heartbreak
betrayal

were you never who I thought you were?
was I never what I thought I was?

one foot out
one foot in
done but still dealing with
still working on
everything that went wrong

your face

it’s easier now to see your face
just a memory
of what used to be
now slowly fading over time

i used to know the person
behind those eyes
or at least i thought i did
i don’t think that person
ever truly existed

one day
maybe one day
there will be a new face
one to trust
one to love
a face that didn’t break my heart
a face that didn’t betray me
one that will show me
i can still feel that way again