late nights

drink this wine
taste it on my lips

sing with me
laugh with me
dance with me

take my hand
your fingers through my hair
heavied breathing
skin to skin

can we do it all again?

all that’s left is charred

you invaded my dreams again
a fantasy world where
we would actually fight and
you would say something

it could be this awful month
stirring up the embers
reigniting the flame

our wedding
our anniversary
day my world was set aflame
26 and 27
night everything burned to the ground

and now
nearly a year later
I am still sweeping up ashes
still trying to clean up the mess you made
while you still fuck with my mind
without even trying

some days

some days
my heart is still broken
and I miss your face
the way you laugh
the way our fingers fit together
when we held each other’s hands

some days
the pain still cuts so deep
and I find myself waiting for that answer
I will never receive

some days
it takes every inch of my being
not to send that text
not to ask how you are doing
not to ask
do you miss me?

slow down

is it fear?
am I afraid?
moving forward
moving on

is it lack of trust?
am I worried?
moving too fast
letting people down
the past

boldly living a new life
trying new things
but still frightened
of the pace
of the timing

do you feel it?

a little flame
or a giant explosion
what is the spark
that ignites a connection
and feeds your desire